It is true....
I am never satisfied. This statement is a negative notation yet it has driven me to the person I am. As far as I can remember nothing was good enough. Is this the gymnast mentality? Perfection.....is this what I seek? Yet a hopless reality. For example, I would hit an almost perfect routine or I would do the best I possibly could and there was always correction or room for improvement. I have lived a constant there is more I must seek more I must do. Another example my weight I can drop ten pounds like that yet I still do not feel small enough. Yes, I know this is brutaly honest about myself. I am starting to realize this metality has left me not ever being content. What truly would make me happy? When will I ever feel happy with who I am or the gifts God has given me? Is this why I stay single too. Looking for perfection in another? All these questions just leave me sad and left to my own disillusions.
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