Wednesday, November 12, 2008

Here I am in a Relationship..... I have never been the type to be in a relationship. In fact I have prided myself to some degree that I have not needed anyone. Plus all the relationships or guys I have ever liked turned out a mess. Thus, leaving me to pick myself up and realize I like being on my own. Now in a relationship I am being asked all these questions that just leave me puzzled. So I ask what is love? How do you know if you should stay with one or move on. I have friends who after a couple of weeks say he is the one only for two months to go by and they have broken up. They find another guy and once again he is also the one. I am told it is full of gushy feelings and wanting to be with the person all the time. I also have my parents tell me love is work and giving of oneself and caring for the other person more than you. I suppose I should listen to my parents as they have been married over 25 years. However, I want the Hollywood story where I saw him and he was the one. The story were everything is perfect and love is luminating from my body the moment I am around him. The older I get the more I realize that I don't think I was meant for such a story, nor do I know this really exist. Yes, some women may think it exist, but maybe they are completly fabricating the story. I wish I had the answers and knew the right way to falling in love.......I wish it was as easy as the story books make love out to be....